Mother Mother Mother...one I'm surprised you played PREGNANT! Secondly I'm surprised that no one stopped you from playing and third, how do you break your thumb? If it's a bounce pass you grab it palm open fingers out, how did you manage to break your thumb? And I want a picture of it!
I might have broken my toe today playing soccer, but that's completely different.
Glad everyone got to the house well, hope everything goes well for Spencer and Daniel, I want to see pictures of the baptism. I saw the BYU score...
I don't know why Ali is crying. All that means is that she will still get everything she wants without even so much as asking for it. And I don't know why you're crying either mother. So just don't! There is nothing sad about the situation except that my comp was right and I'm going to look stupid, but hey I don't have to tell him right? lol jk I'll tell him on our way out.
So story of this week is that I have been tired, down, out of it, lazy, and just sad. Why? Because I work differently than my comp. When he's "working" I feel like I'm slacking off and when I'm working he's dying. But he's senior and has the right to direct the work that we do, but it's taking a huge toll on me. And he is leaving me in a position where I'm losing confidence in my leaders. All of our investigators are none and it's just a wonderfully exhausting situation. President stopped by this week with the assistants to give a training and I asked President is I could talk to him because I felt that I needed to, and that's when I learned how I was feeling because I sat down with President and told him that I wasn't sure how I was feeling or what I wanted to talk about, but then before I even knew what I was saying everything just came flooding out and I almost lost it in front of him...that would have been embarrassing. He listened and then told me that I was doing the right thing, to just let him direct the work and do absolutely nothing to cause contention. He wants me to be the Perfect Jr. If there is one thing and one thing only that I was not ready for coming into the mission it was to be Jr. It has taken me an entire year to learn how to be Jr. To learn what Jr really means and it is exhausting and this last week I used up every last bit of patience that I had. And I lost it! I did not do anything bad, I did not say anything out loud or do anything unbecoming as a missionary, but I lost it and I didn't have any space one more and I was on the edge. I was so tired and frustrated with everything.Going into lunch Sunday, I realized that I had to get control of myself again. We were going into a member's house to eat where they were making a sacrifice to help us and I was on edge. I took a minute and said a prayer, sang a song and went into lunch with a smile on my face and had a great lunch. And now I'm better, but I'm going to use it all again this week being the perfect Jr, giving my opinion and then following his decision. Hopefully, I'll have a little more patience this week, but as for now, I have to go because I'm out of time.
Love you all have a good week
Peace Out!
Elder Lund
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